last day of may 2012

and so...  so fast it's the last day of may 2012 d..

somehow kinda sad today...

partly cuz of loneliness..

then stress from the current engagement...

also it was raining the time i was going back smr...very the emo feeling lol...

and, mainly i guess due to her guar...

cham liao... been dependent on talking to her a lot lately...

somehow sad to admit that can't survive without talking to her  >.= ...

sighhh... can i not so dependent on you arr...

everyday didn't talk to you, it will just feel very weird and uneasy...

hopefully june will be alright and a better month bah

Happy Birthday dear buddy

Today is the birthday of someone very very important to me...

Happy Birthday dear roy o roy !!!

thanks for being there when i was at rock bottom last year...

ur presence really really brought me up again one...

every night talking and listening to me, plus helping so much to sort things out between me and jc..

really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart one...

sometimes cook breakfast for me, most of the time cook dinner and supper for me...
somemore got once when i was studying for final at library and u sent a dinner delivery for me !! all the way from erica to library !!

looking back u just did so so so so so much for me... really thanks a lot ah roy...

and happy birthday to you !!

sincerely from the bottom of my heart, wish that u had a blast today and that u'll be healthy, happy and wealthy yea...

miss those days when we were fooling around during night and midnight, just miss it so much... =)

hope to see u soon, catch up with u and fool around with u again ler... =)

 

hang on

almost there liao...

after going through sooo much..

the sad farewell March

the busy, lost and depressing April and May

and the tough final job ...

hang on man...

the long long rain's gonna stop soon...

almost there d... just hang on and a few more steps to go !!

imy

dunno why...

and undeniable that...

i miss you...

yeah i really really do... =/

(bet u're gonna say i'm mou liu again if i mention that to u lol)..

but yeah...

all the sudden,

imy..

from the bottom of my heart

a lot to say, but dunno how to express

there's a lot lot lot lot of things i wanna say ... to specific people...

seriously a lot of words from the bottom of my heart bah...

but just dunno how to express them and blurt them out...

and dunno whether the other sides got time and heart to listen or not also...

sigh..

a lot lot to say, but really dunno how to express

time out

wohooo...

finally weekend comes after a whole week of work and stress !!

calling a time out for 2 days ~!!!

work stress - for the first time

stress with work for the first time ar....

supposed to be 3 ppl mia job, my senior, an senior AA2 and me, junior AA2..

ended up only me and my senior... za dao..

1st month learnt 3 months thingy,

2nd month learning 6 months thingy..

gosh...

good to get to learn a lot of things in such a short time..

but really kinda stress..

especially when u havta do seinor AA2 mia stuffs where it's only ur 3rd job, can be considered official 2nd since my previous job was only VT role lol...

hopefully can finish everything asap bah...

learn learn learn !!!

stagnant

life is very very weird one...

when u just mention the sad part about it, suddenly the happy part comes...

lol just said about the wall becoming thicker nia, suddenly a change of tide and it became thinner again,
justfortodayitself...

sometimes how i wish some things are stagnant and remain the same...
 99% of it won't happen, but still hoping for it...

i dunno how long the our connection will last bah, but,
as long as possible...

sometimes not that i dun wanna break through the wall, but it takes both sides to break it...
single side is just like banging it against a real thick wall...

the more u break, the thicker the another side build it... lol 

what's next ?

resolution, purpose, mission, objective etc... call it anything but it is something to achieve, to look forward to, to fight for it... this was what discussed today..

i think at the moment i dun have a clear resolution, something for me to fight for at the moment..

it used to be :

high school - get good results for SPM, and give in all i have for my cocus

college - no need to say mia intima and get good grades in diploma/degree

then i used to aim to get into Big Four too, with PwC as my main aim and it changed to EY for a momemt after a career fair at USM back in 2007 lol ...

and until i finished my intern in EY at the beginning of 2010, the main and sole aim is to get into PwC ...

fight and fight and fight... yea i secured a placement in PwC ....

but then the question now is,

What's Next ?

come to think of it, all this while my main aim was to get into PwC only... and the lil additional aim after that was to get a secondment to PwC UK. yea as written, that 'WAS' ...

after these 2 months, i realised if i am to get secondment, i wouldn't have accepted it at the moment.. lol just not ready for it bah...

and back to the question,

the previous aim i had was to get into PwC,

after that didn't really any plan as things are vague too...

so now i'm in there, seriously, What's Next ?

somehow i need something to look forward to, to fight for, to put in my determination for that...
gotta find a resolution soon i think...

transition - as usual

let me man man finish my transition bah... by letting u to slowly walk off and out of my life...

after that, i'll be very very alright and i-don't-care-anymore ~

bear with it ~

transition is always so sien, and not easy, but as usual, not impossible =)

Thank You, Senior

had my review with din today...

dun think he'll see this post anyways... lol nobody will bah i guess..

just wanna say thank you to him again...

thanks a lot seniorrrr...

thanks for giving me such a wonderful score for me PF, i hope it's mainly not because that I'm leaving, but because that's really for my efforts and commitments from what u really felt from ur heart yea...

thanks for the 2.0 score...

thanks for the praises, advices and guidance ...

thanks for still teaching me new stuffs even like just now !!

thanks for teaching me sooooooo much things in my 1st engagement !!

and thanks for making my 1st month in PwC a memorable one...

was able to survive in KL mainly cuz u were the SIC for the job too to be honest...

thank you for everything yea...

if only all seniors are like u, then there's a chance i would've stayed ...

arigato my awesome senior... will look up onto u !! =)




from the bottom of my heart ...

lose to treasure

sometimes u gotta lose or endure something to learn to treasure something...

lol was sick since last Wed (so zhun party smr !! tsk tsk !!) till Sunday with no appetite to eat at all ...

now that i've finally recovered with good appetite, learnt to treasure and eat more d...

can't believe i spent RM 5.10 just for breakfast today at IJN ... !! and additional RM 9.50 for a Cappucino from Gloria Jeans !! wah lue eh, first time i spent so much for such a drink in morning !!

and been eating and eating these few days... chocotop, apple pie, snacks...

lol really learnt my lesson d after enduring the sick 5 days...

being healthy and able to eat normally with good appetite is a blessing that we all should treasure

a spot that matters

sometimes,

you'll realise that,

money, good work, good opportunity, great praises, admirations, potentials, talents, PF with 2.67 score, fame and so and so...

just doesn't matter...

and what matters,

is just a tiny small small place in a her heart...

as simple as that....

is what u'll hope for...

我想....

我想成为一个很厉害的人，

因为有了我，

让这个世界，

而有一点点的不一样；  



(而我的世界， 不过就是妳的心...)

mentality - done, physically now

finally after settling mentality after sooooo long, now physically smr pulak.... gastic + sick + lethargy... tsk tsk.... just finished gao dim with the mentality part now comes physical things to heal...

finally......

finally finally...... to begin with, preparations for april events camp talent quest intima conference party business plan and tests managed to hang onto it till it all finished d today... finally... wohoo.. we made it !!! =)

it's always been there...

i guess the heart has always been in Penang... for the past 2 months... yea, it has always been there, unmoved...

glimpse

suddenly a lil pieces of my soul came back... lol... just a lil but it felt good to be who i used to be, at least for a lil while at the moment