打从心底话

打从心底话， 真的是对你完完全全失望 ....

亏我之前还那么笨

真的是笨,笨,笨及了

不过好开心，因为现在终于看清，终于醒了

没有你，我生活还是可以过得很好

也不会再稀罕你

两星期后，就当是送给你的最后一份礼物，离别的礼物吧

hahahaha~

first time after ages

re-felt the sense of belongings for the first time today

after a couple of long cold weeks...

strength

please grant me the strength, determination and endurance to go through this tough hectic month yea...

all i'm asking for, is until 25th august only ...

tahan !!

aza aza fighting !!!

so be it

if you're happy with current's situation, then so be it bah =)

deep down i really hope that things didn't intercept until so close one... if only we are like how we were last time without getting closer and further...

random

lolz i know this is random...

i've been saying that life is unfair ...

but yea, like i never knew that it is unfair and keep dwelling with it ?

if i really do succumb to that statement, i'll be a sore loser up until today already...

life is unfair, and i knew that since i was 13

it is indeed unfair, but one day, i'll make it fair

like how i told myself on 23rd Jan of 2007..

I'll make the unfairness in life fair someday.. =)

and I am who I am today because life is unfair~

need or not

sai mmm sai ar...

go out to work, 1 bye word also didn't want to say ...

望都不望 ar...

haihz, 对你真的是心灰意冷 de...

thank you

lolz... felt much better after having someone to listen to me..

thank you ah roy... =) ... at least there's someone that can see how i really feel

phail...

no matter how busy I made myself

how tired, how packed and how occupied I am

at the end of the day, that sadness that penetrates straight and deep into the heart is still there.. unmoved

i.miss.last.year....

if only you know...

if only you know that,

happy or sad, also because of you...

that how your single smile makes such a big difference everyday

unbelieveable

dont need to say that everyone doesnt believe,

because even me myself cant believe,

that things would change until like that

and ended up so sadly, so drifted apart and vogue like now...

the worst is, i never know why...

lol

You said you're totally still the same...

But obviously you are really really not...

Even the blinds would've felt the 180 degree difference I guess..

Dunno what u want also..

Whatever larz...

If you're happy with this way, then so be it...

Sigh..

stranger...

Was talking to the new housemate today and told him that she and me are from the same place, were already friend before coming here...

he was like , o,O ?! serious ?
'我看你们俩互相都那么陌生，还以为是来到这里才认识的'

phail....

but what he says is pretty true I guess..

的确很陌生 ....

I wonder how long will this cold last...? or perhaps gonna be permanent ?

Everything happens for a reason

whatever that it is today, happens for a reason....

I guess I'm at faults and that's why things are at such situation now...

seriously don't really know what happened or where gone wrong,

but surely, it happens for a reason...

so I guess I really did plenty of wrongs...




sigh, my bad...

so be it...

If that's what and how you want it to be,

then so be it...

I got nothing to lose... Just less 1 friend... =)

...

我无言...

只想说声,

我,累了.....

3 hours later

gonna wake up 3 hours later for Curtin's Volunteer orientation program @,@ ..

let's hope I can climb out from the bed bah..

GMT + 8

well finally landed back to the wild wild west again...

had quite lots of fun in the trip (excluding the final missed flight scenario >,- )

really was much better than what I anticipated and expected =)

and, I'm glad that I went to this trip...

this trip also made me decide to go to KL for work...

1 of the reasons, I wanna see the big world =)



and sigh,

if only she treats me like she treats everyone out there...

no idea why always get that cool and cold feeling one...

felt like I am an enemy instead of a friend lor sometimes...

Bye Melbourne, Hi Sydney

bye bye Melbourne... actually had a great time there, particularly during Mt Buller skiing time..

time for Sydney ~!! home of everything !! paper crane, darling harbour and even corporates !!

well, it's also the place that made us got closer last year almost at this time too...
let's hope that she'll have a good time returning to this place bah...
no phobia, no sadness, no worries... only happiness and laughters~

Changes

People change as time passes...

So does friendship, relationship and the distance between 2 people...

She's like that, he's also like that...

Really there is no distance between 2 people that will always remain the same?

I wonder, how and what will things become, dun need to say after 10 years, after 2 years time will do...?

Haihz... I wiah things never change...

对不起

今天玩得有点太过火了

觉得还蛮内疚及惭愧的

如果觉得他费，那其实我更加的费

知道他不会也不可能看到，

但我只想说声，

对不起

希望他一路顺风

并能在 Exchange 有美好的日子及回忆

也希望他的思想会成熟

这场大雨

不知道，这场已下了好几个月的大雨几时才能停下来。

而雨停后，会不会是个完完全全新的环境哪 ?

trip

somehow...

I sense that it's gonna be a lonely trip....

have the 'being-alone-outside-the-box' feeling...

sigh, hate the feeling of loneliness...

something that goes straight into the heart, where even physical wound will not be able to do so...

如果....

如果，

你会像去年那样地对我，

那样地与我聊天，

那样地关心我，

那样地聆听我的心声，

那样地热情，

那该有多好....

Second Final Stage

second final stage :

I

don't

care

anymore

13/6/2011

我。难。过